"Is Jesus amazed by your faith, or by the lack of it?"

This simple question hit my heart hard while sitting at church last Sunday.  Jesus is amazed at us. The question is, is it because of our lack of faith in His goodness, resulting in thinking that we have to make our own way in every situation in our lives and everything has to be perfectly planned out in our own minds and make logical sense to the world? OR, is Jesus amazed in a good way? Is he astounded at our faith in His promises? Trusting that He is good regardless of my circumstances and trusting Him to lead me day by day, moment by moment,  and that by being obedient to Him in the small ways He will trust me with bigger parts of His plan?  Am I loving with abandon, without regard to what I get back? Am I noticing those in need, the broken-hearted, the outcasts, those who are exhausted of what this life has to offer and searching for something else? And am I and reaching out? Can people tell there's something different about me, that's not really me at all? Am I trusting Jesus with my life instead of trying to make my life plans by my own?  So many questions, all to say is that apart from God I can do nothing of value.  I pray that this reality will consume my heart, letting the light that I've received shine in the dark places that need it most.  And letting God transfer the fire in my heart to everyone I meet, because the neat thing about fire is that using one candle to light another doesn't cause the light of the first candle to burn any less bright.  There's more than enough light to go around.  I don't think anyone can deny that there is darkness and trouble and pain in this life.  The world could use more of Jesus.