It is crazy that God loves me. Me, even with all my imperfections and sin. Even when at times I am so ungrateful for the life I have been blessed with. I get angry at the gas pump that takes all my money instead of being thankful that I have a ride a car to get to school and work. I get impatient that I have places to be and things to do and a thesis to write and all of them are such pointless things to me but I am just doing them to get it done and waiting on God to give me a clear-cut plan for my life, instead of learning to rejoice in the midst of the unknown and giving thanks for the simple fact that He is so faithful and good, always good. At work, I get annoyed with the customer on the phone that they are asking 50 questions about our pizza deals, and don’t they know I have tables at the door waiting to be seated and pizzas are up need to be brought to my table and my other table needs refills? So you, customer on the phone, really need to make up your mind, now. That is what I think in my head, when really I should be taping into the patience that God wants to give me. But sometimes I chose to just ignore it. Worse, I miss opportunities to talk about God with people who don’t get how much He loves them. I sometimes hesitate to say the name of Jesus in conversation because if I tell people that Jesus changed my life and He could change theirs too, the He died for our sins, so that whoever believes in Him will not die (John 3:16) like we deserve to, because all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God (Romans 3:23), but that we can have eternal life in heaven, they might really think I’m crazy, even though it is the complete truth. Sometimes I feel like I don’t do a good enough job representing God. My words, my actions, they could never do justice to the amazingness of all that God is.
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me (2 Corinthians 9:12).
Grace. His beautiful and amazing grace. A grace that covers all. It reminds me that it's nothing of my own doing that can make me good enough. There is nothing I can do to repay Him, no equal trade-off. But still, by accepting the free gift of His grace, I am covered. I am hidden in Christ, and God no longer sees all my mistakes and my mess of sins. The chains of my sin and regret have been broken by Jesus and Christ has set me FREE. The old me is dead. I am new now. I am accepted and worthy, a daughter of the King. And my new purpose is to let the rest of the world know that they can feel this kind of worth too! God wants to give it to you! He longs for you, He loves you like crazy! He wants you back! And all He needs, is your "Yes."
